The process of writing this newsletter is a constant game of tug of war. My personal brand isn’t “sad girl” even though I cry almost every day (half the time it’s from happiness), but my brand is toxic positivity either. My biggest fear is probably coming off as a victim, or as someone who “complains” without action. So I’m constantly trying to figure out how to talk about my life strategically— but, my brand IS authenticity, so there’s no way to plan the content really.
So I’ll admit that February was really hard for me. The stars and the skies (astrology) predicted that it would change my life, we had a 2/02/22 and a 2/22/22 and it felt like everyone was magic but me. In the midst of recovering from covid for the second time I got the flu, and then I had what felt like a failed art launch that I worked really hard on. My Instagram engagement went down on my business account and it felt like I was literally becoming irrelevant online and in real life (WHATEVER THAT MEANS?)
These aren’t CHLOE problems, and that’s what was driving me crazy. Upset about Instagram? A mediocre launch? I’m the “go with the flow” gal, I’m the one that wakes up feeling magical. Nothing actually, upsetting or traumatic happened this month, and considering what’s happening in other countries around the world, I just really am not in the mood to be so mopey.
But maybe, this is what the stars meant when they said this time would be transformative. My first mistake in life is always when I create specific expectations instead of being fluid and flexible with optimism and trust. Getting sick was another reminder that I’m not doing enough to take care of myself these days (which is definitely true) Didn’t I just write last week that I can stop taking everything as either “sooo good” or “sooo bad” and remember to just take note and move forward?
I’m embracing the mindset that everything doesn't have to be so hard while also embracing the idea that I don’t have to feel ecstatic and magical 100% of the time. Because here’s the thing, maybe there’s some magic to be found in our slumps. Life is meant to be felt!
Xx, Chloe
Here’s your song recc, it’s my favorite of 2022 so far: