I remember the first time I heard news that made me feel completely helpless.
“Some fashion lady on the news said that someday soon, skinny jeans would go out of style” my mom said, casually, before family dinner.
How could she possibly say something like this and remain calm?
I genuinely felt like I had been punched in the gut. I loved skinny jeans, they made me feel like a grown woman. Beautiful. This was probably 9th grade when I was still trying to figure out how to get dressed and actually feel good about the final result. This piece of information was devastating. If I can’t wear skinny jeans what the hell with I wear for the rest of my life?!
I finally had my life figured out and this piece of news was about to change it forever.
This line is super important.
Because that’s the feeling I return to, when I hear something that I don’t like or makes me uneasy. There are countless news articles, think pieces, and now tik toks or whatever, of people telling me things that feel definitive and life ending.
The funny part is, I always feel like I had figured “everything out” but this, this was going to ruin “everything.”
Meanwhile, after years of this, my life isn’t ruined and I still seem to be on a beautiful path towards my dreams. And year after year I’m reminded that I don’t actually have everything figured out. It’s such a relief knowing that I never will, and I never should. Who am I to know and understand everything? It’s such a relief to let that go.
I love reminding myself that I can create my own reality, even if I have to do it daily. I could’ve thought: skinny jeans are out of style? Not for me!
Because here’s the thing, the only thing “ruining” my life, is me. And I have a beautiful life, so I think I might enjoy it while I’m here.
I think it’s a great time to stop looking for a reason to panic.
The best part of all this is that in this very moment, I imagine I will never wear skinny jeans again.
I truly hate them!
Xx Chloe
[A pair of skinny jeans I painted in 2012]
[The tightest pair of jeans I own over 10 years]
They will pry my skinny jeans from my cold dead hands
💗