My writer’s block is continuous and apparent— remember when this newsletter continuously came at 6 am every Monday?
I’ve been wondering why. I seem to be doing well. I feel like I am growing. I’ve felt very creative lately, drawing again. Why can’t I whip out a witty little letter to my friends?
Well, the answer is actually pretty obvious. And this newsletter isn’t about my writer’s block, I promise. I’ve noticed that I have a lot of voices in my brain screaming at the top of their lungs. I am on social media a lot (IT’S MY JOB), I love podcasts, and I find myself with my airpod pro maxes on more than off…
I have the ADHD/anxiety thing where sometimes you don’t want to be alone with your thoughts. So I find myself listening to a ton of podcasts. I guess hot takes are trending because whenever I open tiktok I feel bombarded with self-proclaimed masters and teachers. I’m constantly filling my brain with thoughts and opinions, and it’s honestly left me speechless. I want to focus on my newsletter and grow my newsletter, but I don’t want to come off as preachy or as if I’ve figured everything out.
I think I’ve been doubting myself in a healthy way. There’s nothing wrong with digging deep and asking questions. But it’s hard to think clearly when you have a god damn tik tok playing in the background of your sacred (and literally 5 minute) skincare routine?
I never thought I’d get to this point but I guess I accidentally have.
But today the universe sent me a hug in the form of a gentle nudge to clean up my house before work. My airpods, phone, and iPad were dead so I had to do it in silence. I opened my curtains and listened to the sound of my own breath as I cleaned. I heard every grunt come from my dog, and the birds even gave me a chirp or two.
Ah, this is what I’ve been missing. Silence.
I remembered that I don’t write this newsletter because I consider myself some sort of thought leader, it’s because I love sharing my tiny little lessons!
So here’s the thing, if you’re anything like me, you might need some more silence in your life.
Wow v glad I'm not alone in this! I feel so guilty propping my phone on the sink to watch tiktoks while I scrub on my cerave gentle cleanser yet I continue! to! do! it! Gonna be incredibly brave and wash my face in silence tonight in honor of this edition. Thanks for sharing <3
love this <3